“I Did Not Think I’d Get Through It!”

I arrived last Monday and at first was a little nervous when I saw the withdrawal house, but it was nice to get there. On the first day, I was sleepy and went to bed early. I woke up the next day and felt uncomfortable in the morning and starting on doing some program drills. Around four o’clock my withdrawal symptoms began to kick in and the rest of the night was hard for me. The third day was the hardest day—and of course, it was also the day I wanted to go home.

One of the staff came to help me, and that night was a turning point. They gave me an assist called a nerve assist and it calmed down my body and my mind. After that, we talked and I fell asleep. I felt totally exhausted. When I woke up on the fourth day, it was still challenging, but I felt a change—I felt I could do this. And, my cravings for drugs have decreased since that day. Now the hardest period was over—I had times when I was unable to sleep and I had trouble eating and taking my vitamins—but day-by-day it became better.

Around the fifth day I began to eat a little more, and the sixth day more, and I managed to take the vitamins and cal-mag drink. On Sunday, I moved down to the main building, and it gave me a little boost because I could relax and enjoy some activities. I managed to sleep a little more and also eat a little more.

Today, I still have challenging moments and my body is still recovering, but my mind is focused on one thing—that my hopes and dreams have begun to come alive again. So, I actually feel pretty well inside myself.

At the outset, I thought this was going to be a waste of time, but then I began to see the point of doing this program. In the beginning, all I saw was darkness, blood, and murder—all the ghosts of my past. But as I continued, all this disappeared, just as they had said it would. Today, I did 42 minutes of Objective exercises with another student and I felt peaceful, calm and I felt a heat spread inside my body. I’m glad I stuck with the program—I can see what they meant about the benefit of the exercises and I reached my goals; I was calm, comfortable and able to “be there” and “confront.”

I would like to thank all those who helped me get through the detoxification phase.

Student K.R.