“I Do Not Want to Die an Addict…”

When I was growing up, I was active in dance, piano, and the arts. I had great ambitions in all areas of my life. But when I turned 13 years old, I began to feel bored, I was very shy and I felt lonely. I stopped dancing and piano and all I had left was loneliness and boredom. After this, I started to mess up.

I ended up in an environment full of drugs and surrounded myself with friends who also used drugs. It was all about smoking cannabis and syringes of both morphine and methamphetamine. Even with my height of 1.80 m, I weighed less than 50 kg at my lowest. My body was blue, green and purple—from malnutrition and from the drug use.

I had no hope left for myself—I did not think it was possible to find help to get over my addiction, especially after two failed rehab stays. Drugs were my life and that was how it was.

“I was so tired. I lost contact with my family. They denied me access to my own home so that they could protect my younger siblings.
I stole and sold stuff, just so I had enough to get more drugs.
But, I did not want to be a drug addict.”

I was so tired. I lost contact with my family. They denied me access to my own home so that they could protect my younger siblings. I stole and sold stuff, just so I had enough to get more drugs.

But, I did not want to be a drug addict.

At the age of 20, my parents said, “enough is enough” and tried to persuade me to go to rehabilitation—again.

I said “no” over and over, but after some time passed, I realized, “I do not want to die an addict,” and I also realized that I needed to get my self-respect back.

I decided to make another attempt to get drug-free at Narconon in Denmark. I did not know what to expect, but the help there was more than I had dreamed of or imagined.

I went from being in a position where I was totally out of communication with myself, my body, my surroundings and the people around me—to being in total communication again, thanks to the program.

Throughout the program, I experienced more and more control over my life, I had a healthier body, I regained a lot of energy, and perhaps the best of all—I was comfortable to just be myself—real and natural. I did not feel “fake” anymore, and I could really feel my feelings and I got help to handle them on my own.

I cleaned up many areas of my life that bothered me from my past, and getting that burden lifted off my shoulders made me ready to embrace my new life!

My life after completing the Narconon program has been very exciting for me. I am living in Denmark, and it’s a decision I’m very glad I made. I decided to help other people handle their addiction—which is still important to me today.

I have now been drug-free for over 5 years, and have achieved a lot since that time. Thanks to everything I learned at Narconon, I now have the opportunity to live just the life I wanted.

I am married to an incredible man and we have a wonderful boy together. If it were not for Narconon, I might not have had anything.

C.T.—Narconon Europe Graduate